Hi my name is Joanna and I have struggled all my life ,it seems lilke i cant seem to get over the barrier that keeps holding me back from happiness , and i think that barrier is me but also my self esteem and lack of seeing a dentist regularly as a child and also having fear of them contributed also . as a baby I was born premature and only weighed 1.5 ;lbs 6 oz. ...but have no record and every one swears to it ...in 1962 it shioud have been front page news ....would like help retreiving that i think that might help me ...be cause not ever seeing your hospital birth cert, with weight ,foot print and height ,is kinda bothering me but ,not enough to ruin you r life ....i was a flamenco dancer for a good 10 years as a young girl up to the age of 18 and a good one at that .born the youngest of seven children ,hispanic,catholic middle class family. the only one not to graduate in my family from high school and with good reason so i felt ,I dont think any one could of handled my situation any better ..l...I could of simply just killed my self and believe me i thought about it ...for about 5 min and said i cam go on no one will ever brake me .... Ill show them.... them being my mom and boyfriend ...whom she is now married to ,divorced my dad after 33 years just to be with him ,and the worse part is i wasted 2 years of my life just to please her my mom by staying with this guy ,so she could be with him...and if you want to no the truth i didnt really even klike him very much ,my mom let him sleepm in bed with me with out my dad knowing just so she could hang on to him....it was also my first encounter with physical abuse by a man .....and also the first time i got pregnant and my mom made me have an abortion so my dad wouldnt find out so guess what he did .....so my mom marrys him in jail , divorces my dad ....my dad gets into a car accident with severe brain damage in a coma for 30 days ,out of 7 kids i qwuit my job to sit by his bed side and talk and read to him ,no one else , and still i did it because i lioved him this was around 1984,my dad didnt live at home and istayed with a friend ,,,my mom swore my dad was crazy for making his accuzations ,not to believe him ......yah ok ...she marrys him in jail ....cute...ahaha,she was a cougar before it was cool...lol........i just want to find happiness ,I am almost 50 years old and have never been married ,want to but afraid to take pictures , my dream to find a good hearted man ,and spend what ever time i have left able to smile and look at myself and be happy ... i know i have a self esteem problem but if i could get my teeth fixed that would be something to make me feel better and also be able to gain employment .. if any one has an answer or advice let me know ,,,,i would like to start with my dental work , mental state then life coach ♥ ,,,,thank you ....may peace be with you ,and good luck everyone ,joanna
Hello, my name is Debra... I am a disabled single mom of 5 boys. ....I have managed to get 2 of them grown.I was married for 15 yrs. been divorced close to 5 yrs.The last 5 yrs with my husband we lived in alot of mental abuse steming from his multiple drug addictions.We stuggle to make ends meet and live in very inadequate housing.Our heating unit went out last winter and the landlord is yet to fix it.We have 8 windown in the house only 3 open the floors are about to fall thru, it maybe a shack but i do keep it clean. We can not afford to move and pay deposits and utility fees again. So we are stuck here because I have lil money ...no support from the boys father... and no family other than my Mom whom is very handicapped and lives on SSI and my Dad who was never in my life either, he is in a nursing home.I have 2 brothers, 1 was shot and killed by a police officer at age 29....the other died from illness at age 36. I have a sister but she is also deceased after being beatin to death in prison at age 28. I was the youngest..... for a long time I felt there was a curse on us....and still not sure there isn't. I wonder if I will make it to be 37...I am still fighting for life and to give my cildren one....Most days I feel like a failure...I want so much to give my kids more than what I had .....What can I do????? Please if anyone has any suggestions or thoughts of encouragements plz let me know.
